pros and cons

What you need is what you get.. we might want a trillion things but the universe answers to your true needs. This is pretty clear, but when you long for your wants they become your needs. hence they say  Be careful what you wish for, you may get it...


This is very true. Think about the consequences, is it worth the risk?

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would you be a small fish in big sea or would you be in a small pond as a big fish? where would you rather be?

There are some fish that cannot be caught. It's not that they're faster or stronger than other fish. They're just touched by something extra. Call it luck. Call it grace. One such fish was "The Beast".~ Edward Bloom

A letter with blind faith that you will read..

Dad always spoke about 'faith'. I used to complain what if? then? he used to calmly  respond 'just believe that it will be' my next question used to be how? how can i ? what proof do i have to believe? he always said 'not everything can be proved with proof. there is always something beyond proving and providing evidence. He used to ask me to trust, to leave the rest to  the almighty.I did not do as he asked me to, i always analysed.

But now after so many years i realise some things are worth leaving to the universe, it may sound naive but think about it, how far can you imagine? of course we can to a large extent but it can be anything , infinite possibilities.

We are complex, different situations, various personalities, backgrounds, we are always on clock, riding on insecurities and miseries struggling to find peace. It reminds of a song from cold play'inside a bubble'.  well definitely i did not intend to complain or crib. It just amazes me that  how everything is so volatile, not that we are unaware, yet  we continue. who is right who is not, is it right or wrong,what to expect what not  to, it bothers me though! i mean its tiring ! is it worth finding out? what then once you prove the righteous?

I thought, worked through and maintained despite  my own demons who always tried and are still, to scare me off .I told you

So now i leave it to the universe, i am at my best when not thinking..let it decide whether i am right or wrong, reliable or not .. i can not prove it any more!! its sad that i have to!! Trust , belief, the whole world operates on it why cant we?

The most common..

It has been over a week now , I have not had a good sleep, sumptuous food , few laughs and some coffee.
Life is rather listless . I was wondering about the fact that I am missing on the finest aspects of daily life for a while now,  for a reason of which I do not approve of  but forced to.

one must go through a great ordeal  to combat the demon, though we are equipped with a good defence system .One of the worst situations in life , when your taste buds just refuse to work, your mind runs backwards and your body is nothing but a slump. you would believe in medicines to beat the misery , deep down you know you have to sacrifice few hours of your precious time. no I am not talking about a break up or' how you feel when you are fired'. I am talking about the dreadful COMMON COLD . Yes most common and useless !(yes , have you noticed the difference? for example when you sprained or twisted your ankle or elbow , how many candies and flowers , messages you got? if its common cold,  your friends will leave you to your own device unless they are very generous to share your sneeze and tears!)

Remedies are numerous most of it from the backyard , turmeric, ginger, lemon, cinnamon, basil etc.. For many of my friends these backyard remedies are enough . I  tried all of these, sadly none of these worked on my 'I am all yours my dear virus' immune system.

Eventually I end up fighting for a week with supposedly curable medicines . by then I would have missed many calls , messages meetings .. then one fine morning I would feel all right just like that. I am still trying to figure out how would that happen?.

you do not have ...

You do not have ... i am tired of hearing it! but she never stops saying that .. everyday , every time whether i am depressed or happy or bored or angry...her tone is as sweet as honey no variations whatsoever , whether its day or night .

I want to talk hence i call, want them to listen hence i yell. I have this dire need of expressing , they yawn they shout & hang up ,smirk or ignore but i never stop. i cant complain anyway its me who want to ! but since they do not bother i wonder whether she would , she hears me often yell damn,u***, what*** yet she patiently delivers her very well practiced lines. she makes sure i understand her point , hence would not hesitate to make me understand in three languages.

I never hear her elsewhere, in the market, down the lane, near the old school , across the street , in the movies or the interviews.

My emotions are her identity , when i am happy she is calm, when i am sad she is cruel when i am angry she is annoying . .

my pocket is her availability when i am broke i hear her . you do not have sufficient balance to call the dialled number........